Mature

i'm not gonna speak about how harsh life it is or how harsh anything. But i want to talk about being mature.

Mature isn't about cut the fun about yourself or even trying to look like an adult. it is different.

Once i talked to my friend and he said to me that

" i like being a kid"

i'm a big liar if i say i didn't agree on that.

when you're a kid, you got every privileged, everything that you want. But now you start to think about career, job, family for your own and that scares me.

it's not because i'm already 19 and i'm old so i have to think of that, no. It's because now i see the reality that i have through; the only person that gonna make you through life, is actually just yourself.

i love being a kid, i do.

but now something hit me, big time that makes me realize i have to stop being a kid. like i said before it's not about stop being playful or fun, it's about being more sensitive about your life, and only being self centered if it's about your future, only about your future.

stop thinking about unimportant things and just live.

i know it's sounds like bullshit but now i how it feel like. really stop being selfish yet know how others react about kinds of stimulus and why.

actually it's more about stop over think yet still being sensitive.

i know it sounds ridiculous but i can relate to that, and i wish i'll able to be like what i said in this post